Mmm…Okay…Firstable, I want to say that maybe this is the only way to let you know what I’ve been thinking lately. You know that it’s impossible to talk bout this directly, no way, I couldn’t even imagine how stupid I’d be looked like if I say all these things to you directly, hahaha…Besides, I’m here and you’re 50 miles away from me. Let’s say that this is a public confession that I make in order to respect you as a friend of mine and of course, as a lady.
Okay…Let’s make it short by the way. I juz want to apologize for all the things I’ve done (or even said) to you that (probably) have made you sad, mad, upset, or even cry…Believe me, I never meant to do that. In fact that I don’t even realize that I’ve hurt you (even so bad, maybe).
I met you once in a one fine day. You’re beautiful, that’s my very first thought when I saw you. You came to my boarding house with him. He used to be my boyfriend, yes, that’s true. And all the things’ juz gone wrong from there. I know that you and him are having a relationship and I know it’s a deep one. The problem is, he was one of my very best companions I ever had, and I know that he feels the same way too, that I was one of his best. I know that it still remains, and I know that it will be a big trouble when it comes over your relationship. But one thing you have to know, we never ask to have it. It came along naturally and we never even realize that it exists until you showed us that it has bothered you…
Once he told me that you cried and it’s all because of me…He stated something publicly that I’m the one who has changed his point of view in having a relationship. Implicitely, he said that he could never forget every single step of our journey in the past and surely, it has succesfully made you mad…Okay…So what do I suppose to do…??? He only tried to be honest to describe the “me” he’s ever known, is it wrong…???
I do understand if you feel a bit jealous to all his words, but…it’s only words…!!! In fact that he’s totally yours now and you don’t have to be afraid of losing him because of me…Once again, I do understand if you have this jealousy, it’s normal. But please take a look at the fact that there’s nothing between me and him now…We’re only the part of our past time, that’s it…And it’s impossible for us to be back as we used to be coz there’s no love between us that’s stronger than that one that you have with him…
We’ve already grown up, mam. The only thing you have to do now is juz ensuring yourself that he’s totally yours. Coz it’s true, you’re the winner, you’re the one…!!! You don’t have to worry about your relationship coz in fact there’s nothing to worry. Besides, both of you live happily 50 miles away from me, so what can you expect from it…?
Okay…I think that’s enough…Hhh…I feel much better now…Thanks God…Hehehe…
Once again, I do apologize for all those things above…One thing’s for sure, both of you can live and love happily as you wish, surely you can, without this “me” between you and him…Trust me… 
So…in my 23rd birthday this year, who’re those lucky guys…??? Juz check this out…Hopefully you can find your name written there…Hehehe…